the one someone else is driving me around in...lol...seriously tho...a Wrangler Jeep. :) i love them!
Thursday, 27 May 2010
If you could instantly become fluent in another language, which language would you pick?
Hungarian...i love love love the way it sounds.......or Russian probably
Do you have any scars on your body? If so, how'd you get them?
my left arm, left leg and left shoulder, some across my chest .....i got them from self mutilation ...what they call 'cutting'. I had a very tough time understanding life for what it was and accepting who i was and why i was created. long story filled with what once was rage i could not control and a body i hated. Things have changed. I am in NO WAY ashamed of this. My ex boyfriend who mentally abused me everyday....motivated me to never feel bad about my past.... having heard everyday for 3 years that i was worth nothing and that i was crazy and dumb and pathetic...definitely made me stronger. yes he is an asshole..wasting away in The Hague ..hopefully choking on his own vomit.
bastard.
Oh yes i also have a big scar on my right arm at the back of my elbow area...i got that from a very fun Anguilla Monday from a boat motor....another long story but a fun one. :)
Saturday, 15 May 2010
Under the Pink
Dear All,
I' love to go to New York.
I'd love to finally get some recognition for the work i have been doing all these years.
please vote for me :)
www.artistswanted.org/SarinaGito
scroll to bottom - rate the portfolio - preferably with a 5 so i can stay ontop.
if i make it..i will send postcards to each and every one of you. so do let me know when u vote so i can note down some names. :)
Thank u so much!!!
I' love to go to New York.
I'd love to finally get some recognition for the work i have been doing all these years.
please vote for me :)
www.artistswanted.org/SarinaGito
scroll to bottom - rate the portfolio - preferably with a 5 so i can stay ontop.
if i make it..i will send postcards to each and every one of you. so do let me know when u vote so i can note down some names. :)
Thank u so much!!!
Tuesday, 23 March 2010
Thing
i am but a small thing
in a world of huge somethings
and i fear everything
but nothing
or anything
not just something
i am not a he or a she or an it
i am a me
sometimes i think i'm shit..
(sporadically spreading beauty)
but i am but a small small thing
in a world of everything
and everything
in a world of me
in a world of huge somethings
and i fear everything
but nothing
or anything
not just something
i am not a he or a she or an it
i am a me
sometimes i think i'm shit..
(sporadically spreading beauty)
but i am but a small small thing
in a world of everything
and everything
in a world of me
Tuesday, 16 March 2010
madness
i am but....
a sign...a lamppost...
that little stop in the road....
refresh ur gears and get ready to hit that great highway again
and me?
aww..i'm a big girl...i'll 'get over it'
maybe i shud work at nascar....
or learn how to create bombs....
and blow those motherfuckers away....
no one likes a sad day
but everyone loves dishing em out.....
go figure
:s
just a ramble.....
xxx
luv....sas
a sign...a lamppost...
that little stop in the road....
refresh ur gears and get ready to hit that great highway again
and me?
aww..i'm a big girl...i'll 'get over it'
maybe i shud work at nascar....
or learn how to create bombs....
and blow those motherfuckers away....
no one likes a sad day
but everyone loves dishing em out.....
go figure
:s
just a ramble.....
xxx
luv....sas
Sunday, 18 October 2009
Head Down
she tried to lift them up
it seems tho..he didn't care to fall
as if her helping
was more a burden than a relief
it's over
she wished they'd begun again
empty inside...
avoiding the cliched vocal flaws
her holding on...as he lets go....
as did she when he held me
the secrets he protects
in fear of losing her...but where are they now
if not lost......
or screaming to run far away from him
wishing she could forget the disappointment
the hopes she had ..because he said he loved her
and would always....
another man lie
no surprises please
her happiness lies not in his arms, or the smell of his breath
but rather the realm of nothing...
as he lives on in her little bubble
she longs to embrace death.
nothing compares to him.
the last man to have her heart against her will.
he make true love seem false.
and she enjoys every second of it
Sunday, 6 September 2009
Orange Grove @ Tolhuistuin Amsterdam 2009
such a fun experience last night at the Tolhuistuin in Amsterdam. Felt like being home with good vibes and good music. The atmosphere was extremely chill, cozy and intimate....sofa chairs, quaint cute tables and various coloured candles all over on tables...ashtrays in the form of little silver buckets filled with beach sand...it was a great evening.
and a good day. :) installed our new dressoir, the cats love it as well...pics to come...
Amsterdam 2009
Tuesday, 1 September 2009
Krezip - All My Life
been a long day....started saturday evening...lasted til tonight....
i thought i'd have to create another chapter of my life....instead..i've started a new chapter of my relationship ....
all i can conclude at this moment.......is......
intervention...... patience.....love....... sometimes i get so tired of playing the game of life..but winning by accomplishment and the acquiring of new knowledge....makes one continue the game... now pass go...collect 200 dollars...and continue....
Just Dance
reception pics of my first wedding ever.
all friends...all awesome people....
love is grand...makes life grander.
all friends...all awesome people....
love is grand...makes life grander.
Tuesday, 28 July 2009
Say Hello
Went to the Blijdorp zoo in Rotterdam. Discovered a new found love of stingrays. Amazing and although they appear scary, their face is the most inviting impression of ' kind' .
I wonder if most people think about the creatures which exist with us on planet earth. How important they are.
Valuable.
Wednesday, 15 July 2009
Facade
this stab in my chest
gives me no rest
there is confusion in my head
my thoughts are far from dead
seeking peace
for just a while
questions asked, some not allowed...
love your man, do as he pleases..be proud.
the fucking feeling aches my chest
weaker than a man i am not just because i have breasts
in the end...of the day, of the line..the road..whatever one calls their path
know that all will not be okay. this is just a lie to avoid the wrath.
monogamous we are not, society makes it so
a man will love u, use u and then...let u go.
typical this is ...their little trick
what sense is it to use ur brain, when u have a dick?
14:32
July 15th 2009
Friday, 26 June 2009
Monday, 8 June 2009
Amsterdam
Took some pictures today with Maurice, love of my life, can't stop saying that enough.
The first image was taken in a different park, a different year, but i love how it goes well with the sheep's eye.
Life's good.
Tuesday, 6 January 2009
i'm closing the curtains of the 3 sullen windows in this red sad livingroom
the sad dread sleepy broom
dragging across dustless shiny floorboard doom
alone and alone and alone again they cry
she's tired and too wired to accept the optimistic gloom or to again ask why
her cup runneth over
wetting everythign during slumber
she sits and stares and stares and sits
all day in sunshine whcih goes away in whiles
fold it up and pull it again
wrap it up and stick it again
where is this end...
they scream about?
the sad dread sleepy broom
dragging across dustless shiny floorboard doom
alone and alone and alone again they cry
she's tired and too wired to accept the optimistic gloom or to again ask why
her cup runneth over
wetting everythign during slumber
she sits and stares and stares and sits
all day in sunshine whcih goes away in whiles
fold it up and pull it again
wrap it up and stick it again
where is this end...
they scream about?
que sera
and i sing the words of plenty
i try to show the means of twenty
i let it go to pay around
i drown myself within the sound
the rushing plains of i dont know
the longing pains of let it go
what will be will be
que sera is fucking me
i try to show the means of twenty
i let it go to pay around
i drown myself within the sound
the rushing plains of i dont know
the longing pains of let it go
what will be will be
que sera is fucking me
Monday, 10 November 2008
Questionnaire
the ideology
the concrete base of shit
the cracks of a long day ended by a warm dawn
sipping slippy sweetless wine
ending with a yawn
Do you go nuts, through the choas and confusion of a feeling
begun with a visually telepathic hello
ended by a secret wave of goodbye
aesthetics of what has been and will never be
...the thoughts...how to plan your days...when to fall in love..
turning numb at the second of finding something real...so real
scary...so frightening that u coil into a shell of worm u never even knew existed
but there are concepts...theories...
faint feelings......experiences....denial killed knowledge as she expressed her desperation
the moment of pure bliss
colorblind folding a kiss
convert your blacks to white and back to black
and drown it in a neutral saturation
Do you know music?
pick up a guitar
trash your fancy european sports car
wait to see if they care
play it loud, play it fair
shave ur head or grow ur hair
would u marry melody...if you knew it?
welcome then to the smile
which took a while
to sway our way and warm our eyes.
love.....
with every centimeter of our hearts
no matter the conditions....
regardless of destiny's direction
allowing nature to take its course
my kind created to uncorrupt the corrupted discourse
we need music....
strings
all these things
to fly
do you gather it all in a collection or have you lost faith in perfection?
as you grabbed hold of your favourite perception
just .....to ...run far away
from the world we know.
try to make your existence glow
as blake once described..in his poetic flow
before the moment is ripe
one must let go
the concrete base of shit
the cracks of a long day ended by a warm dawn
sipping slippy sweetless wine
ending with a yawn
Do you go nuts, through the choas and confusion of a feeling
begun with a visually telepathic hello
ended by a secret wave of goodbye
aesthetics of what has been and will never be
...the thoughts...how to plan your days...when to fall in love..
turning numb at the second of finding something real...so real
scary...so frightening that u coil into a shell of worm u never even knew existed
but there are concepts...theories...
faint feelings......experiences....denial killed knowledge as she expressed her desperation
the moment of pure bliss
colorblind folding a kiss
convert your blacks to white and back to black
and drown it in a neutral saturation
Do you know music?
pick up a guitar
trash your fancy european sports car
wait to see if they care
play it loud, play it fair
shave ur head or grow ur hair
would u marry melody...if you knew it?
welcome then to the smile
which took a while
to sway our way and warm our eyes.
love.....
with every centimeter of our hearts
no matter the conditions....
regardless of destiny's direction
allowing nature to take its course
my kind created to uncorrupt the corrupted discourse
we need music....
strings
all these things
to fly
do you gather it all in a collection or have you lost faith in perfection?
as you grabbed hold of your favourite perception
just .....to ...run far away
from the world we know.
try to make your existence glow
as blake once described..in his poetic flow
before the moment is ripe
one must let go
Wednesday, 22 October 2008
Entity
these roads have brought me everywhere
inside the out
strengthening and weakening my brain
this search for inspiration.....
lover
love
existential beyond pre-eminent repair
silly me to not know it when i Find it
silly me to take for granted the most destined peyote of all
blinded by a certain light of curiosity
founded by an energy surfaced by a beauty of self confidence and love
how much do u love.....?
the world in one single circle
spinning round in an absence of coalition
a joint of a thought and a destiny
when do we know that love is an entity
something one needs...
rather than desired
2:56 am
amsterdam
inside the out
strengthening and weakening my brain
this search for inspiration.....
lover
love
existential beyond pre-eminent repair
silly me to not know it when i Find it
silly me to take for granted the most destined peyote of all
blinded by a certain light of curiosity
founded by an energy surfaced by a beauty of self confidence and love
how much do u love.....?
the world in one single circle
spinning round in an absence of coalition
a joint of a thought and a destiny
when do we know that love is an entity
something one needs...
rather than desired
2:56 am
amsterdam
Wednesday, 10 September 2008
secret secret..scaredy me
i'm just as scared as you
got my tails between my legs
got my head sunk in my shoulders
denying the fact that i beg for u
afraid i write the wrong song
or have the wrong thought
find myself twisted and turned up inside the wrong knot
there's no one else but you
in this sphere of souls
you're gorgeous and you rock my world and
i can't let it go
so sue me kill me purge me kiss me
for being in love with you
dig me a hole, let me bury my head
but it's true no matter what i do
no matter what i say or want to
no matter what i admit or don't
i'm fucking head over heels and over rocks and wheels..over downs and lows and highs and flows..i'm madly fucking in love with you
and the idea behind the truth is this
that i scream it secretly with every kiss
hoping that you're keen to me..
and can pick up on the telepathy
and u do....subtly softly
sporadically ..midnight texts ...you do
so i'm scared as i was saying...just as scared as you
i rather cry my fuckin eyes out and write this all to you
sad enuff and bad enuff ...and the record begins to stick
i can have you but met mate and fuckin hell
i won't admit it
you're the spark the flame the burn the love the man i need to meet
a gorgeous fucking explosion of wonder ..goddamn you are so sweet
like candy candy cane you are
a treasure chest of good by far
and sadly u shall never know
until i admit i can let you go.
and that's my biggest secret babe
it does my head in every night
regardless of how much it all hurts to deny
it feels somehow so fucking right
so come to me and be my star
ride the wave
i'll be your guitar
and every string you strum sweetly
will turn into everything and more
and anything else you may ever need
22:55
03 july 2008
got my tails between my legs
got my head sunk in my shoulders
denying the fact that i beg for u
afraid i write the wrong song
or have the wrong thought
find myself twisted and turned up inside the wrong knot
there's no one else but you
in this sphere of souls
you're gorgeous and you rock my world and
i can't let it go
so sue me kill me purge me kiss me
for being in love with you
dig me a hole, let me bury my head
but it's true no matter what i do
no matter what i say or want to
no matter what i admit or don't
i'm fucking head over heels and over rocks and wheels..over downs and lows and highs and flows..i'm madly fucking in love with you
and the idea behind the truth is this
that i scream it secretly with every kiss
hoping that you're keen to me..
and can pick up on the telepathy
and u do....subtly softly
sporadically ..midnight texts ...you do
so i'm scared as i was saying...just as scared as you
i rather cry my fuckin eyes out and write this all to you
sad enuff and bad enuff ...and the record begins to stick
i can have you but met mate and fuckin hell
i won't admit it
you're the spark the flame the burn the love the man i need to meet
a gorgeous fucking explosion of wonder ..goddamn you are so sweet
like candy candy cane you are
a treasure chest of good by far
and sadly u shall never know
until i admit i can let you go.
and that's my biggest secret babe
it does my head in every night
regardless of how much it all hurts to deny
it feels somehow so fucking right
so come to me and be my star
ride the wave
i'll be your guitar
and every string you strum sweetly
will turn into everything and more
and anything else you may ever need
22:55
03 july 2008
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